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Michael Jackson Justice: Rectifying Deborah Kunesh with Michael Jackson

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Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Rectifying Deborah Kunesh with Michael Jackson

December 2, 2010 -  Deborah Kunesh and Her Defense




These posts are ugly.  I know they are and I hate doing them.  Exposing lies is kind of like cleaning out a septic system . . . it stinks, there seems to be no lasting benefit to it but it has to be done. 

A couple of days ago, I posted that I was alerted to an attack on me, on Deborah Kunesh’s page.  This occurred over a comment she did not like that I made on my own blog about her TINI-tactics with fans and promoting of the “Michael” Sony CD.

For the record, Deborah’s “Reflections” website was one of the ones I would gravitate toward in the beginning.  I love the atmosphere of the web site and the focus on Michael personally.  I did not stop going to the site until this past summer and it wasn’t for any particular reason other than I was working on this blog.

Sometime during the summer, one of my closer friends on Facebook who was also a reader of that site asked me why I wasn’t friends with Deborah anymore and asked me if I deleted her.  She asked me if it was over her siding with Charles Thomson.  I have several “Debby’s” that I am friends with and I wasn’t even sure Kunesh and I were ever Facebook friends.  This is what I replied to my friend.  She then asked me if I thought SHE deleted me over Thomson.  I didn’t know and it wasn’t important to me at the time.  I had several of my poems posted on both hers and Seven Bowie’s site but I couldn’t recall if Kunesh and I were ever actually facebook friends, so I didn’t worry about it.

I have had people email me and private message me about being careful who my friends were on Facebook.  I’m not into that.  I don’t have time to sit there and figure out who my friends are and who aren’t.  I don’t have time to segregate the “possible trolls” from the “lurkers” from the “quiet but friendly” and my time online is not about collecting Facebook friends.

With that said, yes, it is a sad event when you learn some things about people.  Kunesh to my knowledge was at best misinformed, perhaps confused on who her real friends were.  You don’t want to believe that someone who puts up a beautiful web page like that for Michael would be anti-Michael.  I don’t really believe that she is, but those emailing me about her tactics on her page DID believe it.  I didn’t know why any more than I would know why someone who professes that her web page comes “from God” would lie, because last time I checked, that wasn’t one of God’s activities (lying).

With that said, Kunesh’s “Bonnie-rant” is below.  I will have to truncate it because it is ten Word document pages long.  On the parts that she repeats herself, I will leave off.   

Looking For Truth



Human Nature...A Call Back to Sanity, Truth and Love
Human Nature

Something strikes me when I think about the 2005 trial and the rabid press salivating to take whatever shots they could at Michael Jackson…

In almost a gleeful way, the reporters spoke about Michael appearing as if he was on drugs, said horrible things about his appearance, and took pot shots at him.  Instead of thinking about what this poor man was going through and their part in it, and the fact that he was in physical pain as well as emotional pain, they hated on him.  Instead of trying to understand, love and care, they tore him limb from limb.

This was true not only during the 2005 trial, but both before and after.  He was a constant target and any fan will attest to that fact… and in fact, many fans find themselves both sad and angered at all he had to go through and want awareness of that spread.

Michael, despite how badly he was treated, always acted with love as the basis for all of his actions.  Love, uniting people, forgiveness.  He got angry and he was hurt, but he continued to take the high road.

We can never forget that message or the actions of a man we all loved. 

******* With this I agree*******

Recently, there have been attacks on my own character, slanderous lies made up against myself and others.

*******This is where the meat of this starts*******

What continues to surprise me is that some of the very people who feel they speak for Michael and feel they are trying to get justice for him, are out there doing the very same thing that was done to Michael, to others….Stating slanderous lies and twisted truths that are no different than the tabloid publications that assassinated Michael’s very own character.  For some reason, they can’t seem to see it…or,  is it being done on purpose?

It doesn’t make it right to do it to someone else, but state how angry and upset you are that this very thing was done to Michael.   You cannot claim that you want justice for Michael and that you look to Michael as an example, and then turn around and do to others exactly what was done to Michael by the tabloids, the press and others.  You can’t take underhanded tactics and baseless rumors and lies, spread them about others and then state that you are about truth.  That doesn’t fly.  Accusations without facts are just cyber-bullying and are just plain, lies.

*******This is exactly what her friends like Thomson have done.  Private Messaging me and accusing me of saying things I did not say, challenging me to ask her while blocking me from doing so is cyber-bullying.  Deleting people and asking others to delete that same person is cyber-bullying and trying to hide behind God does not cloak lies*******

This past week, there have been 2 blogs, same author, that have made some very serious allegations against myself and others.  I have tried to steer clear of all controversy especially regarding others making false claims, though it has been going on for the past year and a half.  These accusations have come against myself and against others who are out there, putting our hearts on the line, working to put truth out there because the truth is important.  I’ve tried to stay out of it because that’s not what Reflections is about.

******* This is a lie.  My blog has not even been up for an entire year.  I didn’t start it until January 2010.  Thomson was “outed” in July of this year.  That was when I began uncovering TINI’S purposes, so in essence, the problems she had with my blog regarding “others” began in July.  If she were truly trying to stay out of it, why defend liars?  Why go out of her way to delete and ask others to delete, if you are staying out of the controversy.  Controversy to her arises from people that don’t follow without question. *******

The truth is, the people who have started the hate campaigns against myself in this case, are upset that they are no longer on my personal page, on this page or on other pages where they were getting their information as they are awaiting a “resurrection” of Michael.  They are hoax believers who wanted “on” my page and others pages, to gather information.  I, along with others, was accused of hiding information on Michael, hiding the fact that he was alive (this is what they believe) as well as some other very crazy accusations. 

They are upset that their sources of information are no longer accessible, which allowed them to continue to weave their lies taken from what they believed to be "hints" about Michael’s death and to try to deceive others.

******* I am not upset that I am not on Deborah’s page.  I didn’t even know I was not on Deborah’s page and I most CERTAINLY do not get my truth from GROUP FACEBOOK PAGES, which for these people HAVE become their own personal tabloid of propaganda.  Go look at how much I post to my own facebook page.  For the most part I stay away.  My communication is done by phone, email and private message . . . and my blog.  I don’t need to start a plethora of fake facebook gang pages to ensnare fans because they found out what the first profile’s agenda was. Those are Deborah’s friends, not mine.*******

I know exactly who these people are and I know who Bonnie’s “sources” are. 

*******Deborah doesn’t know anything about me and she does not know who my sources are.  How arrogant.  I don’t communicate online with my "sources" and the ones sent to “troll” my facebook pages and my blog have been “entertained” but not confided in.  There is only one person who knows who my sources are and it’s not Deborah.  The ones who send me copies of notes like the one Deborah is talking about are asking for help.  They are not sources of my investigations.*******

Hey! Get it Right!!


Further down:

I have stayed quiet on all of these things for the past year and a half because they were my struggles, not yours, and I didn’t want to involve any of you in them.  But due to all that has been falsely said about me, I am going to share some of what has been going on with all of you.

Back many months ago, I shared a page with you all.  Some of you may not have seen it as we have so many new people here.

******* The past year and a half again?  Check the date my blog was started.  Also noted is the “we have so many new people here" . . . The new people are their targets*******

I was in the process of writing up the story about how the Reflections website came about.  This too, was going to be shared with all of you, for free.

Some of what I shared in this site post was that right after Reflections went live, it was all over the world in a very short period of time…within HOURS.  I have always stated that this is God’s project, not mine.  I take no credit for the site, other than being the hands that were used to create it. 

Due to all of this, I found myself having many people contacting me via email and chat wanting to speak with me.  I felt I owed that to everyone because God had brought me to this place and He had me here for a reason. 

******* Yes, and so did Seven Bowie, myself and many others who had a blog or web site put up.  I have said the same on my blog.  But I didn’t leave God in favor of defending those that hurt Michael.  This is what bothers me the most about her post.   God doesn’t lie.  Would God advocate defending those that hurt others with lies?  No.  God doesn’t reward bad behavior.  Reflections is supposed to be about love and acceptance.  If that is the case then why does Deborah practice cyber-ostricization?   God does not advocate hypocrisy. *******

I spoke with people, many who were seriously hurting, some who were searching.  Some who had found God due to Michael and the website.  Others who asked me to pray for them.  Many who looked for my counsel.  These people spent a lot of time praising me…and I continued to remind them that this is all God’s work, not mine.

In fact, for the better of 6 months time at least, this is what my day consisted of.  I many times had 6 or 7 chats going at once..all people who came to me with their problems and concerns and people who wanted a listening ear and felt they could talk with and trust me due to them feeling somehow as if they knew me because of the site. 

*******I went through the same thing . . . I just never bragged about it.  What is her point?  I don’t take credit even for finding half the links I post.  I always give that to the person who found it whether they want to be named or remain anonymous.  I told the same story of my “calling” at the beginning of this blog, I didn’t come up with it later in defense of something I had done.

Now Do I think Deborah is lying about her calling?  I am not qualified to make that statement.  I only mention it because it is no excuse and does not explain nor does it coincide with her actions.  I did not include the subsequent paragraphs she wrote on her self-sacrifice for others because it more or less said what she says above. *******

 When the news came out about the possible book, suddenly, these very people who I had spent so much time helping, went on a rampage against me.  I was very honest in sharing about it because I have always been very honest with all of you and wanted you to know that I had only thought about doing this to help spread the truth and all proceeds would be donated to Michael’s charities.  I had turned down this publisher millions of times.  Reflections was never to be for profit and I want to stick to that.  As I mentioned prior, earnings would go towards Michael’s charities, lawyer fees and other costs incurred…and that’s IF I would do the book.  There has been no definite decision on this.

******* There are lots of people writing books as a result of all this.  Two definite (Faye and now Kunesh) went from “yes they were” to “no definite decision” ironically right after they were challenged on it. To date I have participated in one Ustream interview and that was back in April, with Seven Bowie, Nurse Elaine and Samantha DeGosson.  When I saw the fiasco that all turned into, I bowed out of subsequent interview offers.  I had started to compile a gift to Miss Katherine Jackson full of the inspiration Michael was to others but it never got completed.  It was going to be one book, FOR Miss Katherine, with an online version of the submissions available for all to read, NOT published and no money exchanging hands. 

I have never, nor did I contemplate ever publishing a book about Michael.  I don’t know him, I never met him and I could never earn money off of his name. The mere thought of that sickens me and yes, when I read about others even thinking about it, it angers me.  Those attacking me use this admission as a sign of a weak fan or an uniformed one.  I am not a fan.  I am just someone that grew to love him as I got to know him, through his own words.  I consider myself more of a watchdog for him than anything else.  A guardian, just like the blog says.  Michael’s suffering is what first opened my heart to him, not his music.  His music is what helped me learn who he was.  Michael’s pain and the injustice of it is what prompted me to learn more about him and it became a mission.  I know Michael’s heart.  It’s in his lyrics.  It’s in his music, his voice, his interviews and his speeches and depositions, writings and pictures.  It’s in his eyes.  With that I can speak in confidence that what is being put out on that album is NOT what Michael would want, NOR would he want Sony and Branca driving this.  Michael was about love, but he was NOT about submission.  These people seem to get the two confused.*******

Suddenly, these very people were accusing me of not investigating Michael’s death (though they knew that I had not done that from the beginning, but all of a sudden, it was an issue now), and accusing me of extorting money from Michael.  Comments were made on other’s walls, nasty emails sent to me, chats sent to me.  People starting emailing and messaging me trying to see what they could find out about what was going on and about different people.

*******I don’t know anything about this.  I have never addressed Michael’s death with Kunesh.  I can count the number of posts I ever made to her page with one hand.  I never accused Kunesh of extorting money from Michael (how do you do that if he is gone?).  I never saw nasty comments about Kunesh anywhere nor was I aware of nasty emails or chats.  I don’t frequent Facebook much but to answer comments posted to my page and to answer private inbox messages.  However, what Kunesh is describing here is exactly what I was going through ever since that first post exposing Thomson as “Lowly Newshound” and “Twisted Vision” on MJStar.  Everything I was alerted to about Deborah as through private message or phone call. *******

Then she finally gets to addressing me directly:

As far as Bonnie Cox, I removed her for many reasons.  First, she had sent me emails stating how much she loved the site, how it was her favorite and she wanted me to look at a website that at the time she was creating.   But what she was saying to me was not matching up with her actions.  Prior to this,  I published a few of her poems on Reflections, as I’ve done with so many others, and we had a few emails on FB go back and forth on these subjects (I too, still have the emails).  Then, suddenly, Bonnie started her blog and dropped the website and instead of focusing on Michael the way the website was going to, she started attacking people, focusing on conspiracies regarding Michael’s death and viciously attacking people, all the while quoting Scripture.

*******Deborah removed me right after I questioned Thomson’s involvement with Lowly Newshound and Twisted Vision’s MJStar, judging by the timeline for the first email I received asking me if I deleted her.  I did email her when I first put up the website Michaeljacksonjustice.com and asked her opinion on it.  At the time nothing was going on, on my blog other than posting about my experience with being driven to put up this blog.  There were no such controversies going on with anyone and I had even posted articles on the blog praising an article Thomson had written before I even knew who he was.  This was back in the early part of this year.  The blog was actually started before the web site.  The web site was added a couple weeks after I started the blog.  What I discovered while learning about Michael is what brought the investigative part of this blog to light.  She doesn’t name who I supposedly viciously attack, but I will tell you up front what it was I was attacking . . . the lies.  Deborah again chastises my quoting scripture.  Deborah, here is one for you:

“I know your works, your labor, your patience, and that you cannot bear those who are evil. And you have tested those who say they are apostles and are not, and have found them liars;” Revelation 2:2

It doesn’t even matter what I think.  God sees.  Just know that.

Michael never let a lie by when it hurt others


Further down:

Her latest blog attacks me and some others, once again, and what she is stating is FALSE.

I have always been honest with all of you and I will continue to be.  I am going to discuss what she is stating, and then tell you the truth about each point.  Bonnie is doing exactly what she states she stands against…using tabloid sensationalism to get people to read her blog.

*******She doesn’t mention who I supposedly attacked, she doesn’t even address what I supposedly falsely accuse her of.  Liars are good at using blanket statements, I address details and if I was lying about them, why does she need ten pages to explain herself?  Tabloid sensationalism is exactly the kind of lies I am exposing.  Deborah is wolf in sheep’s clothing.  Deborah is a harbor, defending liars and deceivers.  Again, that is not the God I know. *******

*Bonnie states that “we all know that Deborah Kunesh is writing a book”:…as I stated above, there is no definitive decision on this, though my reasons for doing it have always been about getting the truth out there and donating proceeds to Michael’s charities.  No contracts have been made, no rough draft started.  The only reason in the world I would write a book on Michael and the truth about him would be to further the truth.  The Japanese people have a hard time accessing the truth about Michael and are inundated with tabloid sensationalism.  This was confirmed to me by many others who either live in Japan or know other Japanese MJ fans.  I would never write a book on Michael to line my pockets.  In fact, I told the publisher many, many times, that the reason I created Reflections is because I wanted the world to know the truth about Michael and for everyone to be able to access it.  Despite what people are insinuating…I never agreed to do a book for profit and self-gain.  The only way I agreed to do the book was on the basis that proceeds will directly benefit Michael’s charities.  That was my interest from the start, and remains to be the case.

******* She really touts these charities of Michael’s as a recipient of any windfall she may make from this book she is uncommitted to.  (She’s looked into lawyers, publishers and charities, I think it’s pretty safe to say she was SERIOUSLY considering it).  The last person to tell me they were doing something for charity (Stephanie Wilburn … not WILBORN, the couple that was murdered), the girl who had contacted me about that documentary that Samantha and Taaj Malik took part in.  She had told me the proceeds were going to charity and even named it!  We checked up on that and guess what . . . The charity did not know any of them and had no donation pledged from those names or that fake company, NOR in Michael’s name.  This was someone else I supposedly viciously attacked.  I guess Deborah didn’t read my blog telling about the 3am harassment calls I would get.  These are the people Deborah is protecting. *******

*Bonnie and her source state that I have given different answers on why I was not personally investigating Michael’s death:  I’ve never given different answers…but I have given several, consistent answers…all true.  First off, this site was a calling from God.  I’ve stated that numerous times.  Some will choose to question or not believe that and that’s fine, but I am stating what I experienced.  Due to that, my purpose in this was to get the truth out there about who Michael was, and to help people understand that amidst all of the muck that the tabloid and mainstream media had created about him. 

Being a journalist myself and having worked in media, I know first-hand what it’s like…the spin on the stories, the sometimes careless attitudes of photographers, reporters, etc. who are just out for a story and have forgotten completely the human element and people’s feelings.  I have never believed in that kind of journalism and have always stood against it.

******* I did not question Deborah’s “calling” from God.  I questioned her actions in light of her acclamation.  If Reflections is about putting out there who Michael was against the mainstream media, then what is she doing defending members of the mainstream media who took part in perpetuating those lies about him?  She states she has worked in media and is a journalist herself.   Okay, I have a question . . . does EVERYONE TINI supportive have connections or work/worked for the media or the press? *******

My calling was never to investigate his death, though others feel they were called to do so.  We are all called to different things and God uses us for different purposes.  Not everyone was meant to investigate Michael’s death.  Not everyone was called to do a site like Reflections.  We all are parts of one body called to do different things for a greater good.

*******Yet she IS not only questioning but CONDEMNING my calling to do so (investigate his death).  However my blog is not only about his death.  My blog is about what HE WAS TRYING TO TELL US in what was being done to him.  Anyone condemning THAT does not want others to know, period!*******

  
Bonnie and her source shared some convoluted details of a personal email between myself and her source as I tried to explain to this source some of the further reasons for not investigating Michael’s death.  I am not an investigative journalist, for instance….that would be best left to someone who is.  I am not a forensics expert and I did not know Michael nor do I know any of the people that were surrounding him at the time of his death.

******* I don’t know anything about this at all.  My source?  For what?  I had quite a few emails about Deborah, sprinkled throughout the last couple of months.   The emails that I saw had NOTHING to do with investigating Michael’s death and ONE EMAIL I used as an example only asked Deborah a question in regard to Michael’s death.  She said it would be better left to someone else, yet she condemns the ONLY PERSON covering those responsible for tormenting Michael.   These people are not sources of my blog and have NOTHING TO DO with my investigating what happened to Michael.*******

I also find it very interesting that SUDDENLY this has become such a big issue about myself and Reflections, when, from the get go a year and a half ago, everybody KNEW that I was not investigating Michael’s death and everyone was very aware of what Reflections was about.

*******This is a misstatement.  I don’t have a problem one with “Reflections”.  I have a problem with liars and those defending liars.  It is NOT helping Michael’s defense.  It’s her actions, NOT her website that I have a problem with. *******

*Bonnie and others trying to figure out and call out my sources and bringing up who they think my sources might be:  I have people ask me all of the time who my sources are…emails, etc.  As a journalist, and hopefully a trusted one, you have to keep your sources anonymous if that is what they wish.  Celebrities would not agree to interviews with me if I was not trusted, for instance.  Many people who knew Michael know that if they speak out, that they will be attacked much in the same way I am being attacked.  They choose to share certain information through pages like this one, that they feel is very important for the fans to know, to create greater understanding of Michael, of all he went through, etc.  I would not be trusted if I reveal sources that have asked to be kept confidential and I will not do that, so please don’t ask me to.   I will tell you however, that I check out my sources thoroughly and would not be speaking with people who are not the real deal.  I only speak to the most credible people who know what’s going on and some of who knew Michael and were close.

*******This is a blatant lie.  I have never asked Deborah what her sources were nor did I care.  Sources for what?  Reflections?  I ASSUMED it was Michael, since the whole site is filled with quotes by him, and quotes by others on him, poetry and lyrics.  Her explanation as to why she keeps her sources private as a journalist is unnecessary but revealing.  You’re a JOURNALIST Deborah . . . we get it.  We KNOW what your job is now.  Perhaps changing your site from “Reflections” to “Deflections” is in order?  And when did Tom Mesereau become a celebrity?  Did Deborah replace Stephanie on this documentary? (Note question mark Debby.  This signifies a question, not an accusation). *******

*Bonnie's source claims that I deleted her and that others (my friend's, etc.) deleted her and she asked Bonnie what was wrong with me:  As I stated above, this source was someone I had talked with and tried to help through many personal struggles for months on end, hours a day, who had suddenly turned against me because she was upset about my not being as available (I got tons of emails constantly asking me what she had done wrong and why I wasn’t speaking with her as much…though I had explained many times over that I had so much coming at me and so many people, that I could not keep up…at the same time I was trying to conduct interviews and more research for Reflections.  I kept emailing her back reassuring her and explaining the position I was in and how my time was not my own anymore and I had to have some breaks in between and could not speak for hours a day every day).  It turns out that she was mainly upset because she wanted on my page because she felt I was hiding something or had inside information on Michael’s whereabouts and inside information about Michael that she tried to get me to share with her.  Once I found this out, I removed her.   

******* I don’t know the personal details on this disagreement and it is really irrelevant considering she is not the only “source” as Kunesh wants to call them, that alerted me to her behavior.   Based on the experience I have personally had with this same person, I disagree with the “needy” picture this “journalist” is painting of this person.  This same person also has never asked me about inside information about Michael and has NEVER asked me if I knew where he was (some HAVE asked me) and I AM THE ONE doing that type of investigation.   It could have happened but from my experience, with the topics my blog covers?  No, this person has NOT pressed me about any of this.   This sounds like “cover-fire” of a journalist exposed in a lie. This could have happened between THOSE two, but the person did NOT do that to me.*******

*Breaking News, Michael and Sony….On this subject, as you all know, I shared my personal opinions, as did many of you, and I shared what I know from various, trusted sources who all knew Michael.   I was trying to bring some calm to the madness that has been surrounding us in all of this mess.  These sources have never let me down.  I did not say that Michael didn’t have a problem with Sony, but rather that he had a problem with certain people who worked at Sony (well-documented and Michael spoke of this himself).  As far as Teddy Riley and his Twitter account, I've been told now that someone else was speaking on his behalf and he is now working on getting his account verified so this won't happen again.

*******LOL.  It is still Teddy, Debby! No, these sources have never let HER down . . . but they let MICHAEL down and they have let Michael’s FAMILY AND FANS down.  Here is the difference between a Journalist and . . . well, myself.  I RESOURCE what I write.  My sources and I discuss the direction the investigation is going.  We discuss who was around Michael at certain times, Michael’s demeanor during that time, songs he might have written during that time, speeches, news tabloids that are printed about him during that time and we direct our research in that way.  I link to Michael in Youtube, his lyrics, his speeches and music shorts online.  I only have a couple of trusted on this, but what we find we resource and look for links to verify conclusions.  They are all over my blogs.   The pledge by a journalist to sequester their sources is just a self-administered license to lie.  The WORLD knows there is no nobility in the journalist creed. *******

*Bonnie states that according to an email she was shown, that I was told by her source that people need to be aware of the trial and need to know what happened and that I told the source that nothing will bring him back and that this was bothersome to the source and that she was very bothered by it and that it is somehow linked:  I have always made you aware of the different things going on with the trial as I find them out, but the truth is, there hasn’t been much going on and not much has happened.  Do I think it’s important that what happened to Michael is solved?  Of course.  Just as all of you do.  But the truth is, there is a lot involved, many theories and an LAPD that is dragging its heels.  They have been given lots of information, but apparently don’t seem to be doing anything with it.  I don’t think I have to spell everything out for all of you in regards to this.  No matter what happens, God’s justice will prevail and that has been my stand the entire time.  Even if we don’t see justice on this earth for Michael’s death, and I pray we do, God’s justice will reign.  My commentary on stating that Michael was gone now and nothing will bring him back so we need to focus was due to that.  I have a peace about that, that God’s justice will prevail.

*******Yes, Deborah, it will.  And as you so frequently point out in this novella of yours, God works through people. *******

*RE:  My Private Message to Bonnie:  I PM’d her exactly what I posted to all of you here.  I tried posting this to her blog, but it kept telling me I was not allowed to do that.  Bonnie also stated an outright, blatant lie that I created a fake account to PM her and then disabled it.  I simply sent her the message and blocked her.  Why should I have to deal with someone who is out there spreading hate about me?  I answered or rebutted her false statements made about me on her blog and I was done with it.  Anyone can see for themselves that my accounts (personal and public pages) are still there.

******* What Deborah’s private message to me stated, is that “ . . . since you won’t accept my comments . . .”  I went to my blog and looked for her comments and they did not exist.  Now she says t his above.  Another lie.  Deborah herself stated she has two facebook pages.  She doesn’t call one or the other fake so that makes me a liar.  Regardless of whether she blocked me or used a fake account and disabled it to do it, the POINT IS she sent me a message challenging me on confronting her while making it impossible for me to do so.  Her objective is to lodge false statements.  If she didn’t want to deal with me and what I said in my blog, why bother with ANY of this in the first place and why bother messaging me at all?  Deborah, this is the same third grade tactics used by your friends.  Did You all go to the same special school? *******

*Bonnie hints that myself and others may be connected to Sony and Branca and if I’m not mistaken…seems to be tying me into the disappearance of the funds from Heal the World, and also Uri Gellar and Rabbi Shmuley and the network that surrounded Michael?:  Now, this one tops the cake for me.  As I’ve stated, I never knew Michael and I knew none of people who knew him until shortly before the site went live.  God brought me the right people and kept away the ones who were not right for this project of getting the truth out about one of His children.  Nearly all of the research had been done by this point and most of the site created.  The only thing left to do were finishing touches and transcription of interviews that were done with Tom Mesereau, Aphrodite Jones, Geraldine Hughes and Larry Nimmer.

*******Again this is false and a complete twist of what I said.  Taymoor was mentioned with “Heal the World”.  This is what happens I guess when you turn down interviews.  They instead try to mis-quote what you write . . . Thank God it’s in writing.  Here it is again, for those of you who CAN read http://michaelsguardian.blogspot.com/2010/11/atv-conspiracy-part-2.html  Here is the quote I THINK she is referencing:  “If Deborah/Taymoor are Sony or Branca affiliated, it answers a lot of questions about Michael's "Heal the World" foundation as well as a few other things around Michael's life at that time including the disappearing of the funds, the association of Michael to Schmuley and Uri Gellar and the network that was then around Michael.” -  Note the word “If” at the beginning.  Journalists usually omit this word in their writing which could very well mean they neglect to READ IT too.  The “Heal the World” is a Taymoor bragging point, not Deborah's .  . . TO MY KNOWLEDGE.  *******

I’m reminded of a scripture where Jesus speaks to his disciples and tells them to rejoice when they are being persecuted, because they will know that the truth is getting out there, because when you put the truth out there, the evil cannot stand it and will try to attack.

*******Thank you Deborah.  That is exactly why I keep getting attacked.  The putting out of the truth is a tough battle and does not always come with interviews with “celebrities” and lofty book offers.  The SCRIPTURE you are trying to quote (wasn’t it even worth your effort to look it up?) I believe was this one:

Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”  Matthew 5: 11-12.  There are other similar verses both from Jesus’s testimonies and that of Paul throughout the new testament and even as far back in the old Testament as Deuteronomy.  But the next verse in Matthew also is worth sharing and relevant here:

Matthew 5:13 – “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.”

I will not lose my “flavor” Deborah.  The lies must be exposed.  I didn’t expect you to be one of them, but nothing surprises me anymore.

She goes on to state how Michael was about love.  The only statement in her whole novella that I agree with.  I no longer have the luxury of believing her.  Not after what I have seen. Burdening God with this kind of deception is not even something I can comprehend.  I so much want to just say that Kunesh is misinformed, or at best so wanting to see the good in the people lying that she DOESN’T see, but when you go out of your way to misrepresent what you said to someone and twist another’s words to hide what you did, I can’t excuse that.

I would also never, EVER compare myself to Michael as she has done.  I have never walked in his shoes and never, even now had to deal with the level of deception, conspiracy, attacks, persecution and the twisting of his words that he has dealt with for decades.  Yes, I want to emulate him, follow his example.  Aside from being a loving person, you know what else I see in Michael?

I see a fighter.  I want to emulate that.


I see a compassion for the lied to and the oppressed.  I want to emulate that.


I see a fierce advocate for the defenseless.  I want to emulate that.



I also see someone who’s quiet strength was mistaken for weakness.


And I see someone who never, ever gave up.  That is also a part of Michael that is a good example to follow.


Michael fought the lies too, only he did it his way, with his gift.  I’m doing it with mine.  Deborah is just going to have to get used to it.  I know who trusts me, I don’t have to mention it or make a list.  I don’t need to write a book or do interviews with celebrities to alert people to what happened to Michael.  I have this blog, and so do you all. 

God Bless you and remember Michael’s fight.   Don’t abandon him.


Dear Michael,   I can’t do this.  I tried:


I will not give up.  But I am telling you, there is not much left in me.



Only Faith

Still the air in silent room
Tears of satin fall
Looking up she asks the one
Where did you leave me now

Five hundred ten days he was gone
A heart that wants to close
Opened by a tragedy
Where pain and anguish flows

The strength she finds to move along
Within a mystery
Is borrowed from the one she seeks
Within his melody

Lyrics fold around her frame
Lies, deceptions glance
Devouring the solid ground
On which she used to dance

Her heart open, raw and torn
She crumbles to the floor
Facing yet another day
Of illusion, tricks and lore

Silent battles right for wrong
She navigates alone
On the field in which he fell
She now stands on her own

Grasping in a darkened space
She’s looking for the truth
Perfidious the path can be
She stumbles on the roots

Calling out to he who shared
His woe and misery
How much longer will it be
Til loves’ song reaches me?

Truth he calls is worth the fight
There is no ecstasy
Only faith can move you now
Just keep your eyes on me

Looking up she takes the hand
Of he who wove in song
Hope in store for every child
Displacing what went wrong

Waking to the memory
Another day of choice
Silent tears of satin fall
A thirst to hear his voice

Poem © Bonnie Cox 2010


21 comments:

  1. What angers me about Deborah is the fact that she is even contemplating to write a book that will be for sale. Even though she said the money will be donating to charities Michael supports, how do we know for sure all the money will be donating to charities?

    Deborah said “When the news came out about the possible book, suddenly, these very people who I had spent so much time helping, went on a rampage against me.” Heck yeh, I would do the same thing too, Deborah. You don’t understand that fans are tired of everybody who know or don’t know Michael want to make money in his name. This has to stop.

    Michal already left 20% of his money to charities he supports. If you want to support some of the charities he supports, do it with your own money. Don’t try to sell us anything and claim it’s for his charities. I don’t buy that excuse. Yes, it angers fans and put question marks on your motive and agenda.

    Do you know why, Deborah, the very people you said you’re helping turning accusing you? Because they open themselves trusting you that you truly stands for Michael but they found out that you want to write book(s) for sale, and lost their trust and thought of you as an opportunist to make money using innocent fans.

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  2. Deborah said, “Bonnie started her blog and dropped the website and instead of focusing on Michael the way the website was going to, she started attacking people, focusing on conspiracies regarding Michael’s death and viciously attacking people, all the while quoting Scripture.”

    This is absolutely not fair for her to make this statement. It seems to me she is not reading anything from Bonnie’s blog at all. To make the facts straight, there is no blog or websites in the entire World Wide Web that investigates, researches, and addresses how Michael was brutally abused by those whom he made and continues making billions of dollars.

    I am not by any means undermining others contributions on their web sites and blogs. What I mean is this blog cut thru the chase and go to the heart of the pain Michael faced in his life and as the same time exposing those who lies on his name. This is a remarkable work not to be found anywhere.

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  3. Bonnie,

    Move forward and stay with God. We are all human and fall short, no exceptions. Rise above it.

    All the contraversy in the MJ "fan-mily" or fan communities is really shameful and a disgrace in my opinion. Personal agendas and egos are at the root of the decension. How very sad......

    I enjoy your blog and I hope you are able to rise above all this and move forward. Listen to MJ singing "Smile" and exhale.....

    Remember truth is Freedom!!!

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  4. This is a little off track, but it makes me quite angry how Deborah is claiming to be doing "God's work". I find that very hard to believe, God wants everyone to return to Salvation and be saved before his son returns. THAT is what God is calling people to do. It really upsets me because now she has fooled and blinded so many people claiming she is acting on God's part. God cares for everyones souls and he wants them saved the right way. It is not a "God calling" to write a website for Michael Jackson. She is deceiving so many :-(

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  5. Hi Bonnie,

    I support you and appreciate you and I know your motives and love are pure. You are open and honest and straight and even when people disagree with you, you still respond to them to discuss the issue. Lovely, heartfelt poem Bonnie.

    It saddens me to see so many of Michael's admirers splitting and dividing all over the place. Firstly, I believe the Charles Thompson alliance with various admirers of Michael has been destructive. The man was simply given too much admiration too soon but then I suppose we were all desperate to see anything written about Michael that appeared to vindicate him. Sadly TwistedVision of MJ Star did exactly the opposite and many of Michael's admirers are willing to overlook that fact and not examine the boy's motives for doing a direct turnabout.

    Then of course we have the pro Branca/pro Sony faction. One of the owners of an MJ vindication site that is considered reputable actually openly declares Branca to be a wizard and also totally supports CT regardless of the fact that those dreadful TwistedVision blogs on MJ Star were ugly, cynical and completely anti Michael Jackson.

    Waiting in the wings there are all the celebrity experts gathering armies of fans to make them feel so important as well as those writing books and talking about making documentaries about Michael (not for money of course so they claim).

    Then there are the anti AEG faction as well as the Sony supporters pushing any new products released in Michael's name.

    I never thought events would turn like this for Michael to be honest in his community. I thought we would all be united to bring him some justice and vindicate his name in the media for the sake of his children. These new developments and factions are not helping the cause. Are they not aware and prepared for the filth and dirty tactics which will be flung at Michael if Murray ever goes to trial?

    I don't buy the fact that Branca was invited by Michael to come back into his life days before Michael passed. I simply cannot buy it and totally believe it was a hijack which has conveniently been legally allowed. They walk in with a will which hasn't even been properly witnessed and totally take over Michael's name and property.

    I tend to agree with Leonard Rowe's theory that Dileo was brought back in by AEG to keep other managers away from Michael. I simply don't think that AEG wanted to have Rowe around.

    But these are just my personal beliefs and if I am wrong that's okay because we're all learning here through each other. Similarly, if Michael is still safe and alive on this planet then that would be the best outcome possible. I hate to say it but I've lost faith in the court system dispensing justice for Michael. What Branca got away with is a travesty.

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  6. Bonnie, as MissShae says, move forward and rise above it. With your investigation I personally see you as the only justice seeker out there. But I do feel there is room for other contributions; Michael would not like this infighting. Personally, I feel if someone wants to write a book, then go with it. No one tells me what to read or not to read. Also personally I feel a lot of this division in the fan base is due to misconstrued and misinterpreted words. Words hurt. Michael said that oftentimes. Both the written and spoken. We should all rise above that and fight the bigger cause, justice for Michael, as best we can, each using their strengths to do so.

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  7. Mimi said - "Michal already left 20% of his money to charities he supports. If you want to support some of the charities he supports, do it with your own money. Don’t try to sell us anything and claim it’s for his charities. I don’t buy that excuse. Yes, it angers fans and put question marks on your motive and agenda."

    >>> Mimi, that is a very good point you brought up and it is worth repeating. I have to question the integrity of someone who would support someone like Thomson and DeGosson, proven liars and then turn around and tell us she needs to write a book so she can give to Michael's charities.
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    Mimi said - "Deborah said, “Bonnie started her blog and dropped the website and instead of focusing on Michael the way the website was going to, she started attacking people, focusing on conspiracies regarding Michael’s death and viciously attacking people, all the while quoting Scripture.”

    This is absolutely not fair for her to make this statement. It seems to me she is not reading anything from Bonnie’s blog at all."

    Scripture keeps me grounded which while doing this is NOT EASY. It keeps me from getting angry and remembering where these lies are coming from and the purpose of them. It helps me not to take them personally because it is the agenda they are after. It is a cheap shot in a long-winded diatribe expressing defense of her calling while condemning other's calling. I never questioned her calling, only her actions and the actions of those she defends. I heard a good sermon this morning on the radio about absolute truth. I will include the principle's of it in the next blog. Blew my mind and a day after I really needed to hear that.

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  8. MissShae said - "Move forward and stay with God. We are all human and fall short, no exceptions. Rise above it."

    >>>> Miss Shae, I received a very important email last night, that was very encouraging and saying basically the same thing you said above. I hear both of you. ♥
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    Lonelytruth said - "God cares for everyones souls and he wants them saved the right way. It is not a "God calling" to write a website for Michael Jackson. She is deceiving so many :-("

    >>>> I wasn't sure how to read this, or at least the bottom portion of it. I DO believe that God would call someone or even more than one to defend one of his messengers. Michael suffered and was completely torn apart by the press so that the real Michael was unrecognizable except by those that took time to know him. I DO believe her website, as well as mine, helped other get to know that portion of the real Michael. I don't question anyone's claim to a calling, only their actions if they don't match up with what they are claiming.

    The focus of people like Kunesh, Thomson, DeGosson, Faye, TINI and the rest of the gang-stalkers does not seem to be justice. Because they are pulling people away from what really drove the persecution of him. They are detracting from the truth. Their patterns have been the same. Nothing has changed since 1993.
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    Karin said - "Firstly, I believe the Charles Thompson alliance with various admirers of Michael has been destructive. The man was simply given too much admiration too soon but then I suppose we were all desperate to see anything written about Michael that appeared to vindicate him. Sadly TwistedVision of MJ Star did exactly the opposite and many of Michael's admirers are willing to overlook that fact and not examine the boy's motives for doing a direct turnabout."

    >>>> Karin, you have a lot of information in your post to cover and I may have to split it up if I run out of available space for this comment.... First, thank you very much for what you said in your first paragraph and thank you on the poem too. I was listening to that song "Incomplete" that I posted above with tears pouring out of my eyes and the poem just came out of me. I didn't know what the 510 was and it didn't seem like a "Michael" number so got the calculator out and played with some numbers and came up with 30 days x 17 months and that was the only 510 I could come up with.

    Charles Thomson, you are right. Destructive. Other's involvement with him despite his exposure has left me to question not only Kunesh but Jones and Hughes as well. Cont...

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  9. Cont. for Karin's post... People like Thomson and before him Jones and then further back Hughes for the 1993 allegations, the pattern has been the same. There was the persecution and then the almost immediate books of defense written by people affiliated with those persecuting him "flipping" their opinions. The purpose behind it? Draw attention from the POWER behind the persecution. The press was not the power . . . they were just a tool used by that power. While it is important to expose what the press has become, you are NOT going to ever stop that evil unless you kill it at it's root. We know who the "root" is.
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    Karin said - "Then of course we have the pro Branca/pro Sony faction. One of the owners of an MJ vindication site that is considered reputable actually openly declares Branca to be a wizard and also totally supports CT regardless of the fact that those dreadful TwistedVision blogs on MJ Star were ugly, cynical and completely anti Michael Jackson."

    I know EXACTLY who you are talking about here. He used to post here. He was helpful, he posted links (all trial and press related), and he sent me a TON of "suggested friends" on Facebook which after I caught on, Ignored. Last name begins with an "E"? I deleted and blocked him when he continued to want to argue with me through private message on FB. The other blog you mention, I suspect is Taraborrelli, but he doesn't have very many subscribers and most people reading that blog already know what his agenda is. It is good for revelation though, because the patterns of these people reveal exactly who is involved in what is really only one big group of people.

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  10. June said - "But I do feel there is room for other contributions; Michael would not like this infighting. Personally, I feel if someone wants to write a book, then go with it. "

    >>>> June, I would agree with you but for the pattern. As I said, I don't have a problem with her website. I have a problem with the support for Sony and every single one of these people I bring to light on this web site has something to sell. Yes, there are much bigger fish to fry, but I can GUARANTEE YOU these fish are all attached to the same line. It's not hard to put a puzzle together when all the previous puzzles had pieces that were the same.

    I sometimes have to take the risk of looking petty, but these pieces fit. You will see. We will be moving on and thank you for the advice. ♥

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  11. Bonnie - the last part of my prior post read: no one tells me what to read or what not to read; same as no one tells me what album to buy or not to buy (not buying "michael"), and I despise the way people are capitalizing on his death and his good name; as to your comment "I sometimes have to take the risk of looking petty", no you are not looking petty, but I like it more (most) when you take on what I myself (just my opinion) believe are the bigger issues.

    And I have one for you on the "fake" will: In 2003, Micheal instructed Branca to basically get lost and asked that his files, etc., be turned over to David Legrand, his successor attorney. I have read (and my be wrong) that some files were turned over, but not the "will", which Branca kept. Why do you think LeGrand (and Michael) would not have followed up and made sure, if he was Michael's successor attorney, that he had received everything Michael wanted Branca to turn over to him? Do you have an opinion on this as to what LeGrand's position was at the time, and why didn't get "everything" Michael had requested of Branca? I cannot get this "will" issue out of my head, Branca so magically showing up a week or so before Michael's demise with "will" in hand. I'd sure like to see some explanation for why Michael's wishes in 2003 were not followed through on by LeGrand, his "new" attorney.

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  12. @Bonnie
    I read it all now with comments. This bloggers' war is alarming. I prefer to read your beautiful poems.

    Bonnie, if I may say alike some others here : please avoid as much as possible contact with undesirable people as it continuously sets fire. Just ignore them & move on serenely (not easy daily, I know) with your excellent own work. My humble opinion only.

    We are with you anyway.

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  13. Dear Bonnie,there are very jealous people in this world and we all saw what they did to Michael, these people will never change, I think so. I feel like you when you say:"Michael’s suffering is what first opened my heart to him, not his music. His music is what helped me learn who he was. Michael’s pain and the injustice of it is what prompted me to learn more about him and it became a mission. I know Michael’s heart. It’s in his lyrics. It’s in his music, his voice, his interviews and his speeches and depositions, writings and pictures. It’s in his eyes."
    Bonnie,We are with you!

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  14. June to Bonnie "Why do you think LeGrand (and Michael) would not have followed up and made sure, if he was Michael's successor attorney, that he had received everything Michael wanted Branca to turn over to him?"

    To Bonnie's answer I may not substitute but I find it a good question that the ongoing investigation where Joe Jackson is involved in should raise.

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  15. June said - "but I like it more (most) when you take on what I myself (just my opinion) believe are the bigger issues."

    >>>> That was a very nice way of putting that and I appreciate it. That fish on the same string I mentioned? That string is attached to something bigger. I hope that makes sense.

    On the 2003 will, I consider the timing of that and what happened. Michael was preparing for the fight of his life . . . that trial. And in the course of discovery in preparing for trial certain issues were learned about certain people that were investigated. LeGrand did not last as Michael's lawyer throughout the trial and I question just what part he played in that. Many of those lawyers were corruptible. I had done a piece on LeGrand and the part he played in one of the lawsuits during the time the trial was going on and shortly after. The Ayscough suits here: http://michaelsguardian.blogspot.com/2010/07/was-this-michael-jacksons-2006-raymone.html

    I am unsure if LeGrand was a good guy or bad guy, but I am also unsure if that will that Branca has wasn't a calculation that perhaps Michael's side was counting on. All I know is that there are some people out there that are very, very angry and upset about something and they can't scrape the doo-doo they created off their own shoes.

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  16. LineCH - "Bonnie, if I may say alike some others here : please avoid as much as possible contact with undesirable people as it continuously sets fire. "

    >>> I will try. The biggest stumbling block is the hurt they are causing other fans. I don't like it. I have a hard time just letting that go and sometimes it is hard picking which "battles" are not just distractions.
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    Daniela said - "I feel like you when you say:"Michael’s suffering is what first opened my heart to him, not his music. His music is what helped me learn who he was. Michael’s pain and the injustice of it is what prompted me to learn more about him and it became a mission. I know Michael’s heart. It’s in his lyrics. It’s in his music, his voice, his interviews and his speeches and depositions, writings and pictures. It’s in his eyes."

    >>>> I feel you Daniela♥ I pray you all are hanging in over there. Sometimes this is just emotionally excruciating. I don't think I would have had the strength to keep doing this if I didn't have you all.

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  17. I get the need to out these moles Bonnie and can only imagine the gang-up mentality you are up against as a result. It must be so hard on you!

    I am thankful for your moral compass, your roots deep in the replenishing soils of creation, your armor and strength, that you have your own grassroots network of love and support (((Bonnie)))...(and (((Michael))) too)!

    Hang in there girl!

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  18. Your poem, Only Faith - it's beautiful, such a poignant summary of the struggle. Thank you for sharing.

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  19. @Truthbtold - Thank you Truth. Your unwavering support has been among one of the biggest sources of strength for me. (((((Group Hug including Michael)))))

    I think about this. Michael being protected by a group hug and he has yet to be able to get away. Makes me smile. :o)

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  20. Nice words and thoughts. Now I'm smiling too. :o)

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  21. "Dear Michael, I can’t do this. I tried:
    I will not give up. But I am telling you, there is not much left in me."

    This IS a test of faith in DISGUISE.


    Bonnie,

    DON'T GIVE IN. STAY THE COURSE.

    THE TIME WILL COME FOR THE DUST TO SETTLE AND THE TRUTH WILL BE LEFT STANDING.

    I am sure I speak for many when I say:
    YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS.

    MUCH LOVE TO YOU.
    XOXOXO

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